I have not been emo for ages.  Do take note that I've been pissed off by people these days, and that is not emo. And i happen to believe that today might make a great emo day, i shall start

[this is to someone who would never read this] i thought we were okay. friends, just friends. you were caught up in your world and i was caught up in mine, so what? we were just, friends. we've possibly known each other since kindergarten and not been friends but now we're finally friends, was it neccessary to call me a bitch cause of some weird reasons which i dont even know? i know you're not the type of people who just goes up and randomly call people a bitch. but you dont even say the word 'shit'. so i must've done something wrong? i dont even talk to you when i see you in the face. the last time i saw you, we were fine. the last time i talked to you, you were smiling. and now you call me a bitch? seriously, i do not understand you. but in someway or another, i guess i must've offended you real bad, sorry.  but you'd never read this, its useless. now i dont even know how to start a conversation with you. you'd probably ignore me, im a horrible person to you, i guess.

back to class, i cant really fit in in one eight. they either find me too noisy or somesort of shit reasons. *eff*  today, val shouted at me in the face for being so noisy and irratating and reminded me that everyone hated me cause of that. what happened after that? she made an even bigger din.  puhlease, people can be so self-unconscious at times. she keeps complaining about how loud i talk, what about her? does she have any idea the amount of stress she is causing me? i'm flunking everything thanks to her. the noise she's making. to think she can reprimand me for speaking so loud when 109 and 107 can hear every word she speaks.

i really want 6BO6 back, really badly. no matter how much noise i made, nobody cared and bothered, in fact, they were as crazy as me. and the teachers were so much nicer, unbiassed ->emphasis. and plus, the school field is a ton bigger. i still dont understand why people say ny is big, cause schools like pcps, st nicks are much bigger. ohgourd, i feel like crying and this is bad. i want pcps co. i'd really butcher the juniors if they dont get gwh for the syf! i'll go and support them and scream for 'em when the results come out. just like the olden days.

i feel like a horrible hated person. i can tell you that emo-ness is good. because after being emo, i get a very good nights' sleep and the next morning i dont hate anyone anymore. yesss, i can feel the hatred going awayyyy :D woohoo, wait, i still hate someone. the very last one [pss: not the one who looks like a duck, no] -> someone you'd never know. really.

ps: anthea and hairou [and possibly charlene?]: i dont hate you even though you hate me, so chill  -> even though you'd never read this, but still.